pie charts and triangle graphs

if you don’t count the hustle and bustle of people moving furniture and stomping around on the floor above us, it was pretty much silent for more than half my session this week. it’s not even awkward anymore. i’m in a state.

so because i’m so confused and doggy paddling out in the middle of life’s ocean, in a moment of desperate search for some answers, i shelled out $90 dollars to take a personality test and meet with a career counselor. the personality test basically told me a lot of what i already know but puts my personality into charts and graphs. take a looksy…

i don’t know, untitled.

i re-started therapy two weeks ago but i havent written anything because i have no idea what to write. i have no idea what’s going on and no idea what to report. there’s a lot of that going on in my sessions as well, it’s a lot of silence and talking about the silence and not knowing about anything. i noticed i say “i dont know” a lot when i talk, i’m hoping to put an end to that.

i’m writing right now mostly because today, we were in a different room. the room was smaller but almost everything else inside it was the same (even that ugly rug!), so when i was laying on the couch, i felt bigger like in alice in wonderland when she starts growing and it seems like the room is getting smaller.

the only thing that was different about the new room was the framed print of a fine art painting and the wall it was hung on. also, this room didn’t have willy wonky walls. in the usual room, there’s a monet print with a red border with gold type; in the room today, there was a georgia o’keefe flower painting from the museum of fine arts in st. petersburg, white trim, black type (these are the kinds of things i remember). i’m curious about what other prints they have in the other rooms. on my way out after my session, the door to one of the other rooms was open and there was a miro print, i think.

i really just wish i would get a job already. i mailed out a check for $90 dollars today to take a career test. that’s how lost i feel.. take my money, provide me with guidance!  ill let you know how that goes.