entanglement

i dont know who to tell things to since i figure most people don’t care. so even though the first 3 weeks of august is lacking in therapy, i have something to say!

i think i mentioned this in an earlier entry but i dont think i went into detail because i was too mad at myself to think about it. even though im a bad storyteller, still really mad at myself and still feel like the biggest asshole ever, its relevant to whatever dumb point im eventually going to try to make, i think. ok ready? sometime in may, after graduation, an art school friend gave me a painting she made that was based on a painting i made. she had to leave in a hurry after graduation to take a job in germany and left a bunch of supplies and the painting in her studio for me to pick up. so i go to her studio to get everything but the painting was as tall as me and there was a lot of other heavy things. there was no possible way i could carry this 5′x4′ painting with a milkcrate full of clay and resin back to my apartment by myself so i wrapped the painting in bubblewrap, got it all ready with plans of coming back for it. by the time i get back to get the painting, its gone, the studio is completely bare, and i feel like the biggest dumbass jerk that ever lived. and to this day, i still cant face my friend who’s in germany and tell her what happened. even retelling this story now brings back the creepycrud asshole feelings i felt when i first realized im an idiot for not getting the painting sooner.

but anyway, i digress, the point is this happened in may and ive been trying not to think about it because all it does is make me feel horrible. this morning im having breakfast with a high school friend, telling her about the painting and our friend who painted it, shuddering at all those creepycrud asshole feelings that come flooding back.

later that day…

i get an incoming call from the number 0000123456. i guess i expected it to be some jokester trying to mess with me because i answer the phone with a sing-song “heeelllllllllllllooooooooo?” oh! guess who it is! “hey, im in new york! i had problems with my german visa and i’m back in new york for 2 weeks!”

ahhhh!!!!!!!! djf;klaj0-w;fwwwhhhaaaaat???!!

it was just one of those UNIVERSE! YOU’VE DONE IT AGAIN! days. and apparently, that has a name! This is what Wikipedia has to say about entanglement theory.

Quantum entanglement is a quantum mechanical phenomenon in which the quantum states of two or more objects are linked together so that one object can no longer be adequately described without full mention of its counterpart — even though the individual objects may be spatially separated.

i’m pretty sure i have no idea what im talking about when it comes to physics but basically, the example i was taught with is if we’re having a conversation about sea lions and later that day, i see a sea lion. but keep in mind that  this was explained to me during a 5-hour drive/hash smoking session so… you know. i wanna know more!